Tomorrow you turn two 🎉 💝

You are my little one, my constant companion, my sweet guy. Soon you will have journeyed twice around our glorious sun.
Two years ago at 3:00 am, my labor was picking up. I moaned with each contraction. I swayed and cried. I did my best. You were on your way. Was it really two years ago? I would do it all again for you in a heartbeat. I would do it all again and more.

Your birthday reminds me that these days are precious, irreplaceable, and short-lived. You may carry only a few conscious memories of our time together thus far. Yet, all of these days are etched into my heart. I am eternally grateful for the opportunity to be your mother. It is an honor beyond measure to nurture your unique and beautiful expression in this world.

Time does his dance. It’s relentless, gorgeous, and difficult to keep up. How to be present through so much change? How to fully take in the miracle unfolding around me as I watch you grow?

The truth is that I’ll miss these days of infancy and toddlerdom. One day, I’ll have free time to once again lose myself in projects for hours and hours. Yet, I’ll miss these days where I put aside my own agenda and focus on building block towers or playing trucks with you. I’ll miss our baths together and our joyful living room workouts where you point out to the TV when you  with such joy and excitement shout, “Mommy look at me!”. I’ll miss you running to me shouting, “Mommy! Mommy! Mommy!” every time you find something really cool to share. It may be a worm on the sidewalk or a squirrel climbing up the tree, but you run to share it with me. That won’t always happen.

You are finding your way to independence. I cheer you on as you practice saying, “Bye-bye Mommy!” Then you shut the door to the bedroom. You pop out again and laugh. We make up games to ease the separation, for both of us.

I celebrate you tomorrow. I celebrate that you turn two with joy. I celebrate your incredible light in my life. I celebrate your health and happiness. I bow in gratitude for the pure wonder of living even one day with you my son.

Happy-soon-to-be Birthday Little One.

I thank you for your light❤😍

April 2016 Ready to have a feast at Chipotle

Playtime before bedtime April 2016

Bike rides around the lake where you’d always shout and point to the train every time       May 2016

My two little ninjas September 2016

You are growing into an independent little boy October 2016